Ever since I was a little girl, I felt that I was connected to something greater. I sensed intuitively that there was a force that connected all things. What this sense of connectedness meant didn’t become clear until I was 33 years old.
In 2007 I experienced a deep betrayal and in turn the loss of my best friend, someone I am certain was a soul-mate. This experience plunged me into a “dark night of the soul.” I was devastated, beside myself. I had experienced deep pain and loss in my past, but there was nothing ever that could have prepared me for this loss. It was type of pain I knew I would take to my grave. I knew that this soul was someone who was connected to me on another level.
I tried everything possible to heal myself. I went to a counselor, but that never seemed to help me. I cried, I wrote in a journal, and I prayed and prayed (which was something I never did, not having ever been a “religious” person). But nothing I did helped. Having always believed that we as humans are made from the same energy that makes up all creatures and matter on this Earth, I felt that there was an alternative, less tangible way in which we could heal ourselves. So I began exploring all different types of alternative healing: I had Reiki treatments, Shamanic healing, Acupuncture. I had Tarot readings desperately seeking answers. And I began to practice yoga and meditation.
As I did that, something inside me began to shift on a subtle level. As I continued with the different healing modalities, the shift became more and more profound, until I experienced what I can only describe as a “spiritual awakening.” I began to receive psychic and intuitive messages, and I had my first Out of Body experience, which in an instant, confirmed for myself the immortality of the human soul. My consciousness began to blow wide open, and my heart began to expand beyond a capacity I had never known possible. I began to receive epiphanies, and I began to have a sense on “knowing” that comes with a very heightened awareness.
As I moved from this experience of “awakening,” further into my practice of yoga and meditation, the awareness continued to grow and grow, and I found myself able to access a level of peace and joy that I’d never known before. Things that would have bothered, angered or upset, or even enraged me in the past, didn’t seem to bother me anymore. I seemed to be able to just let them roll right off. I had a new sense of peace, calm and acceptance.
Of course that peace is not a constant. As with any human being, I still have those days where I feel rocked to the core and I get knocked off the wagon. And I definitely have my days when I feel immense frustration with people and when I feel or act on emotions that are less than “enlightened.” But what is different now, is that I have the knowledge and the capacity to be able to access that place of peace, that higher level of my consciousness that allows me to transcend the pain, suffering and the unhealthy emotions and behavior of everyday life.
The purpose of this blog is to stay connected and to promote the path of “The Awakened Life.” My goal is that when I am faced with or observe the trials and tribulations of daily life, or when I am presented with a challenge where I have a choice to act out of ego, or out of awareness, that I can take the enlightened path and approach these experiences from an awakened perspective. This is my journey.